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stunt_muppet at 11:20pm on 06/11/2011 under fandom, life, things i want to write, transformers, writing
stunt_muppet at 11:20pm on 06/11/2011 under fandom, life, things i want to write, transformers, writingI had a cleverer title but I forgot it.[Poll #1792990]
2. If I named a fic (or a chapter of a fic) "Faaip de Oiad", how many people, approximately, would know what I was talking about?
I do on occasion hate the small reference pools fandom can inspire.
(It's Enochian for "voice of God", and a track on the Tool album Lateralus that samples a hoax caller to the Art Bell radio show. You can hear it here!)
Anyway I'd been tossing it around as a name for the Holy War AU on the occasion that I ever actually write the damn thing which looks increasingly unlikely, but there was one time back in middle school when I suggested a friend name one of her fis something in Italian and she ended up getting no readers because everyone thought the fic was in Italian. But I suppose if you don't know the reference, "Faaip de Oiad" just sounds like a nonsense phrase.
3. Hot damn does Homestuck make me want to start drawing again. I mean, Transformers makes me want to draw again too, but I have an excuse for being bad at it because they're all robots and I've never drawn robots before. (Except that most of the fanart I want to draw is of the humans trololo) And now all the characters here are humanoid, or at least most of them are, and as such I've got no excuse.
I feel like I almost need to go back to drawing because writing has become so listless and chore-like lately, like "Nobody likes what you write and you write boring crap nobody cares about and in a few years it'll all be useless because this isn't getting you a career or doing anything productive with your time bluh bluh", that kind of feeling. Drawing is still by that criterion a waste of time, but at least it's a waste of time that more people seem to be responsive to and thus more willing to give my sad ass validation. What with Tumblr and the fandoms I'm in being cartoons/comics (and thus imitable in artwork, whereas real-life people are harder to do fanart for), I seem to be in a more and more visually-oriented corner of fandom and sometimes I can't help feeling like I'm being left behind.
And yet every time I even try drawing it all ends up looking stiff and stilted and unrealistic and I get frustrated and scribble over it and YOU GUYS MAKE IT LOOK SO FUCKING EASY I CAN'T EVEN. *pouts*
Any...advice, I guess, on how to get better? Or at least not feel like crap about being bad at it and post it anyway?
4. What makes up for my lack of drawing skills is the fact that over the weekend I have made some incredibly kickass jewelry and I am gonna post pictures in the next couple of days and you are all going to be wildly jealous or something.
5. Fandom seems determined to make me want things I thought I didn't even like. Oh, you don't like enemy ships/FoeYay? Surprise, Doctor/Master! Now you do*. Oh, you say that doesn't count because they were so polite to each other when they were Three and Delgado? Have some TF Prime Optimus/Megatron. Changed your mind? Oh, and you know how you were talking about not liking doomed and unhappy ships? I brought you some Animated!Optimus/Sentinel/Elita. Now you do.
What's that? Pseudo-incest doesn't bother you but biological incest ships aren't your bag? Surprise Dave/Rose motherfucker.
I am almost afraid to state out loud that I don't like furry or vore or other fringe stuff because I'm terrified of fandom somehow twisting itself around to prove me wrong and I don't want to like them.
*Of course, if I'm really looking back into my fannish history, even before I got into Doctor Who I still shipped CSI: Miami Horatio/Stetler really hard. But then again, Miami was kind of weird.
...you don't get to judge me, okay.
6. So, lets say a hypothetical fan who was definitely not me was writing a Transformers fic with the original thirteen Primes in them. And when she started writing it, there were only a few Primes named, and while there was talk of there being one female Prime she wasn't actually named yet. So this fan picked a new name for her Prime (Volta) and went about her fannish day without ever actually writing this damn fic.
Fast forward maybe a year or so. The list of Primes is much more complete, and the name of the one lady, Solus, is now public knowledge. And it's pretty official that she's the only girl.
Does the hypothetical writer who is in no way me:
a) Change the name from Volta to Solus, even though that requires a little more canonical justification?
b) say "fuck it" and keep the "second" female Prime because screw that, let's have us More Ladies?
7. Ravens, what are you doing, how do you blow a lead like that? :(
8. Aaaand I didn't do my homework again. Bleh. Do it tomorrow. I had a busy busy week last week and I have earned the right to goof off this weekend.
2. If I named a fic (or a chapter of a fic) "Faaip de Oiad", how many people, approximately, would know what I was talking about?
I do on occasion hate the small reference pools fandom can inspire.
(It's Enochian for "voice of God", and a track on the Tool album Lateralus that samples a hoax caller to the Art Bell radio show. You can hear it here!)
Anyway I'd been tossing it around as a name for the Holy War AU on the occasion that I ever actually write the damn thing which looks increasingly unlikely, but there was one time back in middle school when I suggested a friend name one of her fis something in Italian and she ended up getting no readers because everyone thought the fic was in Italian. But I suppose if you don't know the reference, "Faaip de Oiad" just sounds like a nonsense phrase.
3. Hot damn does Homestuck make me want to start drawing again. I mean, Transformers makes me want to draw again too, but I have an excuse for being bad at it because they're all robots and I've never drawn robots before. (Except that most of the fanart I want to draw is of the humans trololo) And now all the characters here are humanoid, or at least most of them are, and as such I've got no excuse.
I feel like I almost need to go back to drawing because writing has become so listless and chore-like lately, like "Nobody likes what you write and you write boring crap nobody cares about and in a few years it'll all be useless because this isn't getting you a career or doing anything productive with your time bluh bluh", that kind of feeling. Drawing is still by that criterion a waste of time, but at least it's a waste of time that more people seem to be responsive to and thus more willing to give my sad ass validation. What with Tumblr and the fandoms I'm in being cartoons/comics (and thus imitable in artwork, whereas real-life people are harder to do fanart for), I seem to be in a more and more visually-oriented corner of fandom and sometimes I can't help feeling like I'm being left behind.
And yet every time I even try drawing it all ends up looking stiff and stilted and unrealistic and I get frustrated and scribble over it and YOU GUYS MAKE IT LOOK SO FUCKING EASY I CAN'T EVEN. *pouts*
Any...advice, I guess, on how to get better? Or at least not feel like crap about being bad at it and post it anyway?
4. What makes up for my lack of drawing skills is the fact that over the weekend I have made some incredibly kickass jewelry and I am gonna post pictures in the next couple of days and you are all going to be wildly jealous or something.
5. Fandom seems determined to make me want things I thought I didn't even like. Oh, you don't like enemy ships/FoeYay? Surprise, Doctor/Master! Now you do*. Oh, you say that doesn't count because they were so polite to each other when they were Three and Delgado? Have some TF Prime Optimus/Megatron. Changed your mind? Oh, and you know how you were talking about not liking doomed and unhappy ships? I brought you some Animated!Optimus/Sentinel/Elita. Now you do.
What's that? Pseudo-incest doesn't bother you but biological incest ships aren't your bag? Surprise Dave/Rose motherfucker.
I am almost afraid to state out loud that I don't like furry or vore or other fringe stuff because I'm terrified of fandom somehow twisting itself around to prove me wrong and I don't want to like them.
*Of course, if I'm really looking back into my fannish history, even before I got into Doctor Who I still shipped CSI: Miami Horatio/Stetler really hard. But then again, Miami was kind of weird.
...you don't get to judge me, okay.
6. So, lets say a hypothetical fan who was definitely not me was writing a Transformers fic with the original thirteen Primes in them. And when she started writing it, there were only a few Primes named, and while there was talk of there being one female Prime she wasn't actually named yet. So this fan picked a new name for her Prime (Volta) and went about her fannish day without ever actually writing this damn fic.
Fast forward maybe a year or so. The list of Primes is much more complete, and the name of the one lady, Solus, is now public knowledge. And it's pretty official that she's the only girl.
Does the hypothetical writer who is in no way me:
a) Change the name from Volta to Solus, even though that requires a little more canonical justification?
b) say "fuck it" and keep the "second" female Prime because screw that, let's have us More Ladies?
7. Ravens, what are you doing, how do you blow a lead like that? :(
8. Aaaand I didn't do my homework again. Bleh. Do it tomorrow. I had a busy busy week last week and I have earned the right to goof off this weekend.
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* How to get better at drawing: Practice. ;P Or so I am told. How not to feel bad about it: if you will draw a whatsit and post it, so will I. If you want. If it would make you feel better to see what "stiff and stilted and unrealistic" looks like when somebody who only draws blueprints does it. (I keep wanting to get into drawing, because I have all these fanarts in my head, but I'm like "I am the worst artist ever! I can't show anyone this stuff!" So it would help me too.) Just let me know.
* Second female Prime, WHY NOT. FANDOM NEEDS MORE LADIES. Even though I know so little about Transformers that I hadn't known there were any Primes besides Optimus till I read this post. (Hey, at least I knew Optimus, right? *g*)
Unless it would be, like, really easy to make it Solus instead of Volta (although I love the name Volta). I mean, no point making it harder on yourself. And I am kind of... more casual about canon than you are, iirc. (I mean, not in the little things - there's an otherwise perfect fic that always makes me twitch a bit because a character who canonically hates boiled eggs was said to have built an egg-boiler, ffs - but "Hey, in my fic there's another female Prime! Because WHY NOT. MOAR LADIES." It's a well-defined AU, therefore to me there's no problem.)
...that got long. Sorry?
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*But but but everyone is already so much better than me and they're all so much younger than me how can I possibly catch up ever. ;____; I know that practice is what helps people get better, but...I've been practicing, and I don't seem to get that good. I get better, but not good enough.
Of course, there's the whole perfectionism thing, where nothing's good enough...so, yeah, actually, it might be nice to have someone else posting with me. Thank you so much for offering; that's very sweet of you. :D
*A ha ha ha it's completely silly how complicated the "cosmology" of this bonkers little Eighties cartoon got in the ensuing comics and spinoffs. In the intervening twenty or so years they've introduced a robot creator-god and thirteen robot "angels" called the Primes (which is where Optimus got his title, sort of) who fought the Robot Devil Planet-Eater Galactus Thing. And then one of them turned traitor and became Robot Lucifer. It sounds really boneheaded when I talk about it.
But yeah, most of the Thirteen don't have names yet, but one of them was recently revealed to be the only canonical female - all the rest are men because apparently women are a whole separate body type akin to cars and planes. And as such my lady couldn't be part of it, and - if I'm honest? It'd probably actually be easy to make my girl into Solus (the girl Prime) because Solus is the weaponsmith of the Primes, and Volta (or the character who'll become Volta) is known for pullingweapons out of subspace, but Volta makes more sense from the perspective of the story. And also I am so deeply annoyed at the only-one-lady thing that I might put in Volta and headbutt with that particular bit of canon anyway.
That's okay, the reply got even longer. XD