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I figured out what needs to happen to get me writing things again! What needs to happen is I need to wake up at 3am two days in a row for no reason.

I've been falling asleep at a normal time but waking up super early for a while now, and every time I do something to fix it (extra/heavy blanket, cutting off music for a certain time before bed, etc) it works for a little while before it starts over again. It's happened regardless of if there's anything in particular I'm stressing out about too, though it may be some kind of background stress due to *gestures vaguely at everything*.

It may have something to do with the fact that when I set my own bedtime I tend to stay up late; Fiance, meanwhile, goes to bed around 10:30pm pretty consistently. So maybe I'm waking up early because I'm not staying up as late as I used to? But he's had that habit since he moved in with me and the problem is newer than that.

I just hope I'm not becoming A Morning Person. I've never been A Morning Person! I don't want to be one! Morning People have, like, life plans and FitBits and stickers on their car about running marathons.

The writing's been nice, though. I should remember to do that first when I wake up early, instead of staring at the ceiling being annoyed.

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Morning People have, like, life plans and FitBits and stickers on their car about running marathons.

Ahaha, I have an Instagram under my real full name that I really only use to follow my sister-in-law for new pictures of my nieces and nephew. I also follow one of my former library managers after she followed me. She’s a runner and gets up at stupid o’clock every morning to go running and pretty regularly posts updates, and I just don’t understand it. And yes, she has stickers from her marathons and half-marathons on her car.

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A couple of my cousins that I follow on Facebook are like that - including one who has like five kids and a dog and still gets up at five am to train for marathons. I mean, she'll probably outlive me as a consequence, but it still boggles my mind.

Fiance's parents also do the whole gym-before-work thing (necessitating getting up early), and I understand their reasoning - that lets you work out before work makes you tired and lets you shower and start fresh. But just because I think the reasoning makes sense doesn't mean I think it's something I could actually do.

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I always say that if I’m running, something very bad is happening.

A while back, Former Manager posted a screenshot of her running app that said she’d just run 15 miles. In the caption, she said that the app wasn’t working properly and it was “more like only 13 miles.” Yes, ONLY 13 miles 🙄.

I just have to pray that I never actually have to run away from anything, because even the fear of a Nightmarish Post-Apocalyptic Future can't motivate me to run at this point, certainly not for multiple miles. Though that said, my life's gotten a lot better since I figured out exactly what I didn't like about running as a form of exercise (specifically that I found it to be boring) and used that to puzzle out exercise that I *would* be able to do consistently. I'm actually in better shape and I'm not having to force myself to do something I hate doing for hours!

Morning People have, like, life plans and FitBits and stickers on their car about running marathons.

If it's any reassurance, I am a morning person and also a complete disaster who couldn't run a marathon if there were wild dogs chasing me down.

I'm not a 3am morning person, admittedly. That sounds unpleasant. But it's good to hear you've been writing!

That is actually reassuring? I had this weird dread that if I *was* starting to shift to an earlier internal clock some sort of personality switch would flip. It's nice to hear that I could wake up early and spend that time on writing or video games instead.

It's strange, but my biggest bursts of writing productivity seem to happen when I haven't been sleeping well. Maybe I find the angst of insomnia inspiring?

Anyway, I very much hear you about the background stress of *waves hands*, but it's lovely that you've been writing! Although I hope that lack of sleep doesn't turn out to be an inherent part of the process.

I talked to my therapist about this once, and according to her being sleep deprived is a little bit like being tipsy - it slows your reaction time, impairs coordination, etc., but it can also lower inhibitions or senses of shame. So if you're not writing because you feel like your writing's not good enough or not worth the time, being tired or tipsy can help turn that off.

Granted, I'd rather not have to rely on either of those. Achieving that mindset without having to stay up for it is a work in progress.

Oh no, that makes so much sense... and is highly relevant to my latest round of trying to be kinder to myself with respect to writing. Good luck with your efforts to cultivate that mindset!

I just hope I'm not becoming A Morning Person. I've never been A Morning Person! I don't want to be one! Morning People have, like, life plans and FitBits and stickers on their car about running marathons.

As a morning person, I don't think you have to fear this at all (^_^;)

It's fascinating to me hearing from morning people who aren't Type-A exercise-at-dawn people, because the two are so synonymous in my mind! Maybe it's a Venn Diagram thing, where runners tend to be early risers but not all early risers are runners?

I usually spend my mornings distracted by youtube, but when my brain is cooperating I prefer to spend it watching a movie, or an episode, or playing a game, or reading a book. On a rare occasion I might just start working on something like a piece of writing or something else I'm finding particularly interesting.

I'd like to be an early morning runner, but considering that I feel anxious leaving the house (or doing anything tbh), loathe getting sweaty, and find working out tedious, I've yet to make that work (^_^;)

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