Okay, one, I'm sorry this sat for so long! I wound up with a ton of busy evenings and in between those I was just doing nothing but work on this fic out of fear that if I didn't I never would BUT I have conquered the thing and now I can be sociable again.
it reminds me of the way I get progressively more anxious about writing the farther and/or more invested I get in any given story.
That's exactly it! I don't think I'd noticed while I was actually in the process but I did feel like I sort of had to rush and get this story out and I think that has something to do with not wanting to spend too much time on it. If I spent a long time on it, then in order to somehow 'justify' that time, the finished product would have to be polished and 'good'.
And I know what you mean too on having to be sleep-deprived to post anything smutty. Less sleep means lower inhibitions and less self-consciousness! It's just, you know, a shame about all the tradeoffs.
Now that I'm out of the writing hole I can actually talk! :D
it reminds me of the way I get progressively more anxious about writing the farther and/or more invested I get in any given story.
That's exactly it! I don't think I'd noticed while I was actually in the process but I did feel like I sort of had to rush and get this story out and I think that has something to do with not wanting to spend too much time on it. If I spent a long time on it, then in order to somehow 'justify' that time, the finished product would have to be polished and 'good'.
And I know what you mean too on having to be sleep-deprived to post anything smutty. Less sleep means lower inhibitions and less self-consciousness! It's just, you know, a shame about all the tradeoffs.