stunt_muppet: (kermit says yay!)
There exists, in this round of [livejournal.com profile] springkink , a friendship prompt for Deadpool/Pinkie Pie.

I will actually bribe one of you to write it.

stunt_muppet: (omfg whut)
Contrary to the title this entry is not whining about retail. It's still pretty sane here in the shop, and every day I praise the Patron Saint of Retail Workers that I am not working at Best Buy and have not had to break up any fights.

Nah, this entry is whining about actually for-real failing Organic Chem. I mean, I tried, the night before my final, to finish all the work I had to make up, I really did. And I studied. And then I got my third test back and saw I'd gotten a 42 out of 110 on it, which is somehow worse than I did on the test I didn't even finish.

And so I just said "fuck it" and hid in my room for the rest of the day until it was time to go to work and didn't even check to see if my professors e-mailed me because I just wanted to forget I'd ever taken that class.

In all honesty? I'd be okay with taking it again. It'd be kind of a waste of money, but I've saved up from working the holidays. What I'm most worried about is what kind of lie I'm going to tell my mother. I'm not looking forward to the freak-out "what's wrong with you, I thought you were getting better, you're so much better than this" business. I get why I failed - I was working plus taking care of her while she did her schoolwork plus taking care of my grandfather plus applying to/fretting over grad school plus getting sick plus not giving a crap about the class after the halfway point. But given that she wants me to go to grad school so bad I'm afraid she'll make me quit work, and I don't want to do that before I get another job. I need an outside job to feel useful, to feel like I'm doing something with myself, and also I hate having to borrow money from my parents.

I wish I still gave a crap. I hate not giving a crap, especially about grad school. As much as I hate the idea of it I feel like I don't have a choice, like if I don't have that impetus of "go to grad school" I'll have no direction and just sit around my parents' house and wallow. Even if I know I wouldn't.

Oh, and the mouspad on my computer stopped working, in more first-world-problem news. I need to try to scrounge up a USB mouse to make sure that it's just the mouse and not the whole computer suddenly, which I don't think it is since it boots up okay. Uuuugh. Why is everything kind of bollocks right now.

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On a completely different note, listening to nonstop holiday music at the shop seriously makes me want to write about the various religions and psuedo-religions and gods and celebrations in my various fandoms. Like hey, wasn't Time considered a goddess in Doctor Who secondary canon? Odd, given the fact that Time Lords are supposed to be a highly advanced scientific society. Is this a sign of their decadence, or of how far they've fallen, that they attribute what they formerly had mastery over to the supernatural? And hey, maybe there's even a James Frazer "Golden Bough" thing going on where because so many sophisticated minds believe in this godlike force and as such that causes her to be real and time to stop behaving rationally.

Or hey, even Transformers. Primus/the planet/the creator is referred to as a god, but how does one worship or express faith in something that you know is currently extant and beneath your feet? What about the Thirteen, do people know about that? Are they like saints? Or Homestuck, with the obvious parallels between The Sufferer, the Dolorosa, the Disciple and the Psionic to Jesus, Mary, Mary Magdalene and Peter - and given all the dinners my family eats over at the Cuban place with all its Santeria candles I ended up thinking about the history of Marian devotion and how strongly Mary is represented in syncretic religions and hey, I wonder how that would go when not only is the Mary figure still alive (because she doesn't get killed till Mindfang's time) but the whole faith is sort of underground and secret and if any of the Sufferer's secret followers have a branch of Dolorosa devotion and I'm thinking about this too hard again aren't I.

Of course, this is sometimes this is the only think keeping me from punching someone in the face the 500th time I hear "Rocking Around the Christmas Tree", so there's that.

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I plan on doing very little but sleeping tomorrow. 

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Mood:: 'cold' cold
stunt_muppet: (nom nom nom)
I'm not even working tomorrow, it'll be great.

But in the meanwhile, last night I was like "Oh hey, I've got a whole bunch of labs to do. TIME TO MAKE SOME ICONS HERP DERP."

And so I feel I should post them so I have a sense of completion.

23 icons, all Homestuck because that's where the fanart comes easiest, mostly ancestors and Equius.

Preview:

 

Icons! )

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Also on a similar note, I don't suppose there's any Handmaid/Darkleer out there. I mean it does remove all the creepy dubconnish "I put a chip in your heart to make you love me" grossness from Equius/Aradia, and if the Handmaid still has any hope left of escaping her employer using Darkleer's psychic void seems like a natural idea.

Of course, she'd be found anyway and Darkleer would die horribly because that's kind of how the Ancestors' lives work, but wouldn't it be cool while it lasted?

...don't make me write it. I can't even explain to you how much crap I already have to catch up on.
Mood:: 'busy' busy
stunt_muppet: (nom nom nom)
1. Write a whole bunch of John/Karkat specifically to piss everyone off.

Hey, hey, fandom, come over here I have something really exciting to tell you. Are you listening? Are you ready for it because I think you aren't it might just blow your mind right out of your face.

Ready okay here it is:

There is no such thing as an inherently bad pairing. Or an inherently good one, for that matter. There is no intrinsic moral or utilitarian worth to be had in any pairing given that they're all just ideas/devices for us to have fun with a media source on the internet. You don't have to like any particular pairing, but your feelings about them do not make them good or bad.

Now shut up and sit down and stop throwing fits about it. Cripes.

2. Sign up for Yuletide. Last time I tried that I defaulted and I'm pathologically incapable of doing much of anything on a deadline so it's pretty well covered why it'd be a bad idea to sign up for Yuletide but it always seems like so much fun and I am a greedy bastard who likes getting presents. :(

Plus, last time I signed up the fandoms I volunteered for (and the one I ended up getting assigned) included the movie The Fall, which is so unceasingly flawless that when I tried to write for it I tied myself in knots trying to construct Meaningful Symbolic Magical Realist Blather that equalled the unbearable perfection that is The Fall and predictably enough didn't get anywhere.

If I was going to sign up this time, I would sign up for movies like Van Helsing and Priest, because yes, there's a category for the Priest movie. The thing is, much as I enjoyed them, both of those movies were complete bollocks that I went to see mainly because there were pretty people in them. I would feel much less pressure writing for them.

Although I suppose if I wrote for Priest the recipient might expect me to know things about the manhwa and I really don't, so...

Also the Gabriel Knight games are on there and if I had played the last one I would sign up just to write that, MORE GABRIEL KNIGHT LOVE YEAAAH.  

3. Make some icons out of the pile of fanart I've right-click-saved from Tumblr. Oh wait I already did that.

Six Homestuck (mostly Equius and Equius <> Nepeta), 5 Transformers Animated (Sari, human!Wasp, Blackarachnia), and one random humanized Pinkie Pie because I can. Oh, and one Tarman from Return of the Living Dead, because the picture was funny.

Icons! )



Don't make fun of my amateur icon skills. :(

4. Join Tumblr, for that matter, given that about a third of LJ seems to have moved there. Where are you gu~ys?

But I'd feel weird being on Tumblr - there's no real way to post fic or blog on there, you just have to reblog from other blogs, and I can't figureout how one's supposed to hold a conversation of any kind. Also it seems to be primarily fanart focused and while I've been going to the open model sessions at our local arts center I'm still not good enough to have any kind of consistent offering.

5. Spend an hour on the computer making a post when I should be doing something productive like cleaning my room or getting ready for work.

OH WAIT.
Music:: "Savior of the Dreaming Dead" - Homestuck Vol. 7
stunt_muppet: (nom nom nom)
I had a cleverer title but I forgot it.[Poll #1792990]

2. If I named a fic (or a chapter of a fic) "Faaip de Oiad", how many people, approximately, would know what I was talking about?

I do on occasion hate the small reference pools fandom can inspire.

(It's Enochian for "voice of God", and a track on the Tool album Lateralus that samples a hoax caller to the Art Bell radio show. You can hear it here!)

Anyway I'd been tossing it around as a name for the Holy War AU on the occasion that I ever actually write the damn thing which looks increasingly unlikely, but there was one time back in middle school when I suggested a friend name one of her fis something in Italian and she ended up getting no readers because everyone thought the fic was in Italian. But I suppose if you don't know the reference, "Faaip de Oiad" just sounds like a nonsense phrase.

3. Hot damn does Homestuck make me want to start drawing again. I mean, Transformers makes me want to draw again too, but I have an excuse for being bad at it because they're all robots and I've never drawn robots before. (Except that most of the fanart I want to draw is of the humans trololo) And now all the characters here are humanoid, or at least most of them are, and as such I've got no excuse.

I feel like I almost need to go back to drawing because writing has become so listless and chore-like lately, like "Nobody likes what you write and you write boring crap nobody cares about and in a few years it'll all be useless because this isn't getting you a career or doing anything productive with your time bluh bluh", that kind of feeling. Drawing is still by that criterion a waste of time, but at least it's a waste of time that more people seem to be responsive to and thus more willing to give my sad ass validation. What with Tumblr and the fandoms I'm in being cartoons/comics (and thus imitable in artwork, whereas real-life people are harder to do fanart for), I seem to be in a more and more visually-oriented corner of fandom and sometimes I can't help feeling like I'm being left behind.

And yet every time I even try drawing it all ends up looking stiff and stilted and unrealistic and I get frustrated and scribble over it and YOU GUYS MAKE IT LOOK SO FUCKING EASY I CAN'T EVEN. *pouts*

Any...advice, I guess, on how to get better? Or at least not feel like crap about being bad at it and post it anyway?

4. What makes up for my lack of drawing skills is the fact that over the weekend I have made some incredibly kickass jewelry and I am gonna post pictures in the next couple of days and you are all going to be wildly jealous or something.

5.  Fandom seems determined to make me want things I thought I didn't even like. Oh, you don't like enemy ships/FoeYay? Surprise, Doctor/Master! Now you do*. Oh, you say that doesn't count because they were so polite to each other when they were Three and Delgado? Have some TF Prime Optimus/Megatron. Changed your mind? Oh, and you know how you were talking about not liking doomed and unhappy ships? I brought you some Animated!Optimus/Sentinel/Elita. Now you do.

What's that? Pseudo-incest doesn't bother you but biological incest ships aren't your bag? Surprise Dave/Rose motherfucker.

I am almost afraid to state out loud that I don't like furry or vore or other fringe stuff because I'm terrified of fandom somehow twisting itself around to prove me wrong and I don't want to like them.

*Of course, if I'm really looking back into my fannish history, even before I got into Doctor Who I still shipped CSI: Miami Horatio/Stetler really hard. But then again, Miami was kind of weird.

...you don't get to judge me, okay.

6. So, lets say a hypothetical fan who was definitely not me was writing a Transformers fic with the original thirteen Primes in them. And when she started writing it, there were only a few Primes named, and while there was talk of there being one female Prime she wasn't actually named yet. So this fan picked a new name for her Prime (Volta) and went about her fannish day without ever actually writing this damn fic.

Fast forward maybe a year or so. The list of Primes is much more complete, and the name of the one lady, Solus, is now public knowledge. And it's pretty official that she's the only girl.

Does the hypothetical writer who is in no way me:

a) Change the name from Volta to Solus, even though that requires a little more canonical justification?
b) say "fuck it" and keep the "second" female Prime because screw that, let's have us More Ladies?

7. Ravens, what are you doing, how do you blow a lead like that? :(

8. Aaaand I didn't do my homework again. Bleh. Do it tomorrow. I had a busy busy week last week and I have earned the right to goof off this weekend.
Mood:: 'blah' blah
Music:: Ravens v. Steelers
stunt_muppet: (This is my TF icon 2)
So while I've been doing labs (which is why I haven't posted most of this week, that and having not much of anything to say), I've been listening to/watching back episodes of Brows Held High. And then some of Diamanda Hagen's reviews as well, which cover much more pulp and kitsch.

Between those three, I've had no less than three (contains flashing lights) weird, graphic indie films that explore the connection between sex and Communist revolution. And in some cases equate the two. Oh, and two of them were made in the former Yugoslavia. (The videos are all censored, though still not very worksafe, and are still rather interesting watches if only for a glimpse at these peculiar movies and the movements they represented.)

And, because the proper response to political art films is to write fanfic about children's shows, I ended up thinking about this.

Contains spoilers for the TFP finale and also communism. )




There are only two conclusions I can reach here:

1) I watch some weird fucking movies.
2) I'm in some weird fucking fandoms.
Music:: "Fashion" - Lady Gaga
stunt_muppet: (Solitaire: A writer's best friend)
I'm actually finished studying for the night, but I should probably be in bed. But first, another meaningless poll as to what I should be working on next once this test is over, since I've got a lot of unfinished stuff and I can't decide.[Poll #1783689]
Mood:: 'nervous' nervous
stunt_muppet: (this is my TF icon)
Yay!

Note that since I came up with most of these I've seen other people put forward the same theories, but I arrived at them more or less on my own, so. Yeah. For what that's worth.

Spoilers for the most recent episodes of Doctor Who, Transformers Prime, and Generator Rex behind the cut. )


Oh, and one other thing: there's a reviewer on TGWTG now called Oancitizen who reviews oddball arthouse cinema like Antichrist, Nine Songs, and Jan Svankmajer's Alice (with the gruesomest, most inappropriate bits censored, so no fear). I don't know if any of you out there have the same disproportionate love for Euroschlocky weirdness, but if you are, well, take a looksee. 

And now it's 2 a.m. again so I should go to bed. Curse my late-night habits.
Music:: King's Quest VI Playthrough
Mood:: 'sleepy' sleepy
stunt_muppet: (this is my TF icon)
So I went and stayed up until 1 a.m. watching AMV Hell 5. Considering I have work tomorrow morning, this was probably a poor life choice. At least I don't work til noon?

At least I got some new music out of it, as I tend to with AMV Hell. And The Eyes of Mars with Marillon Cotillard is my jam at the moment. It makes me want to write more Epic Fic where Sari is a Mystical Magical Cyberton Goddess or whatever the fuck it was I was writing about.

I don't know, it's this thing I have. Some people like to hurt their favorite characters, some people like to draw their favorite characters in costumes; I like to give my favorite characters cosmic importance or make them the only one who can save the day or something.

AND HEY SPEAKING OF THAT. Writing blather about that postwar I keep talking about. )

Oh, that reminds me: I've seen the first two episodes of TF: Prime! Maybe more complete reactions later when it's not 2 a.m. and I am not being irresponsible, but in summation: I think it'll grow on me. I didn't have that instant OMG I NEED MORE OF THIS IN MY LIFE NOW NOW NOW reaction that I did with Animated of Beast Wars, but I did enjoy it and I want to see where it goes.

I need to go to bed so much right now. I just need to stop watching AMVs first...easier said, I know.

(P.S. Hey, check out the icon. [livejournal.com profile] pellimusprime  made it. Isn't it purty?)
Mood:: 'tired' tired
Music:: "The Eyes of Mars" - Franz Ferdinand w/ Marion Cotillard
stunt_muppet: (nom nom nom)
1. The bad news: I managed to overdraw my checking account yesterday. Only by a few dollars, and I was able to quickly transfer some money from my savings and avoid fees and things, but it was still an unwelcome moment of panic, and now I have very little money left in either checking or savings. :( Which is all on me, since I've not been very responsible with my money, but it doesn't help that I haven't earned any since last summer. Fortunately my parents were kind enough to front me parking fare until I start getting my paychecks from Fair Trade Shop, but even so. I am used to having some stuff saved up! Being broke is not good.

The good: Fortunately, there is more of this!

a. My laptop lives! She also runs a bit faster now that all the stuff's been cleared off, and now I can leave all my school documents and things on my external drive. The only major losses: about 500 words total of fic (everything else that hasn't been saved is posted up here; thank goodness for my attention-whoring) and all my bug photos. Which is what I'm most sad about, but most of those are on my Dad's camera so hopefully I should be able to retrieve them, and if nothing else they're all posted on DA so I can go get them there.

Oh, and all my bookmarks are gone. That's going to be the hardest thing.

b. I have done my first paid week at The Shop! Not gotten paid yet, though, but it's nice just to have a job, and I think I am doing it reasonably well. I give the Fair Trade Schpiel. I convince people to buy things. The whole deal.

Interesting people who have been in the shop this past week:

i. A couple of Korean ladies who neither spoke nor understood English, thus our transaction was completed almost completely in gesture.

ii. An elderly man missing some of his front teeth, and who smelled very strongly of alcohol; when he came into the store, he told me "Things don't make sense, and that's why I drink. I like everything in a room to be the same." And from there he just went around and looked at things, and asked what they were made of, and seemed surprised that everything was handcrafted. When we got to the section with the chessboards he moved the pieces into a position that he told me was the most difficult position in chess, hwere even seasoned pros couldn't tell how the game was going to go from there. And then, after a while, he left.

I think he might have been homeless, but either way, I just felt like I should talk to him.

iii. An adorable young Japanese couple, who also didn't speak a whole lot of English, but who kept laughing and teasing each other - the boy kept trying on huge straw hats and asking his girlfriend if he looked cool. Also notable for being the only time I've heard an actual Japanese person use the word "kawaii".

iv. A lady who used to be a buyer for kisii soapstone statues in Kenya (which is one of the things we sell), as well as a gemologist before that, so she was really knowledgable about our stuff and told me a lot of details I didn't know about how the jewlery was made. I told her (in the course of making conversation) that I'd wanted to be a gemologist when I was little; her resopnse was "You should do it! You just need to take a couple of courses to get certified!" Maybe if I don't get hired for anything long term, that's what I'll do, hah.

v. The librarian from my elementary school! And she remembered me! She asked me how I was doing, and was surprised to hear that I had graduated from college already. She's apparently retired from the library, though.

One thing hat I thought was funny was that she told me the reason she remembered me was that when I was in first grade I decided to rewrite the ending of a fairy tale into something I liked better, and she'd always thought that was funny. Which I thought was funny too, but at the same time does make me despair a bit that I will ever be able to write anything other than fanfiction. Because you know how most people who grow up to be writers make up stories when they're little? Yeah, no, I've pretty much been writing fanfic forever and it's all I'm good at, writing-wise. :( Though at least maybe this means I'll grow up to be good at theoretical or academic work because I'm good at looking at stories and their parts and how they work. 

(Fun fact: I "wrote" my first ever fanfiction before I knew how to write. When I was four I would make up continued adventures for the characters of The Rescuers Down Under and make my parents act them out with me.)

c. I went to see MegaMind a couple of days ago before work (I had a gift card for the movies) and quite enjoyed it! It was cute, and fun, and the title character was adorable and dorky and generally lovely. But the really sad thing is that I think this movie might actually be what jump-starts me into writing fic again after my long funk.

Cut for mild spoilers. )

...also I may have come out of the movie shipping MegaMind/Minion a little bit. WHAT DID I SAY ABOUT JUDGING, OKAY. Besides, I'm half-convinced we were supposed to.

d. Speaking of movies (but on a completely tonally different note) Black Swan comes out on December 1 and the most complete cut of Metropolis yet is being released on Blu-Ray. Can I tell you how excited I am? I'm a lot excited. And maybe I can ask for Metropolis for Christmas and that'll be incentive to finish up my half-assed Disability Studies thesis on the artificial body and how Metropolis engages with it in relation to mechanization of labor. 

e. In front of MegaMind there was a real honest-to-goodness trailer for Transformers: Prime and it's gonna be here in just over a week! NEW CANON SO EXCITE.

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I finally don't have work tomorrow! Not that I don't like my job, not at all, but I am also rather fond of the idea of having a day off, especially since I'm working Black Friday. Sleeping in tomorrow, woo.
Music:: "Daikenkai" - DDR Soundtrack
Mood:: 'blank' blank

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