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2012-11-23 10:13 pm
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Um. Hello.

Wow it's been a long time.

There's even a "Like" thing here now, that's new.

So. There's a lot to talk about, and every time I try to type out a post about it it gets way too long and off-topic and I stop. So, instead, I'll just say hi, and apologize for not being here.

It can be difficult to blog when all I want to do in the evenings is nap sometimes. have things been with you?
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2012-08-05 09:21 pm

When did this happen? And how do we make it stop?

Oh wow has it really been since May since I was here?

That's sad.

The worst part is, it's not like I don't have anything to talk about! I have lots to talk about, but that's part of the problem - things just keep happening and I have more and more things to put in an entry like this and so because I have so much to talk about I never know how to say it satisfactorially I end up never saying it at all.

New job has gone super super well so far! I think they really do want to keep me on past the end of my part-time appointment, since they talk about giving me assignments past the end of my part-time assignment, in September. Which is exciting, since I've been trying to get a full-time job for two years now, but also a little scary!

There was about two weeks there when my parents were both out of the house on vacation, and it was up to me to fix dinner, get all the chores done, feed the dog, get to and from work on time, assign menus and tasks for my brother and me to make sure the dog got fed when I worked late and the plants got watered and everything and the laundry got done, and as I was preparing bills to pay to drop off before I went to work, and it occurred to me - am I, like, being an adult? Is this what adulthood looks like?

It was nice to feel capable (and let me tell you, just having a job has done wonders for my mood, never mind holding down the house), but at the same time it's like OH MY GOD WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN.

I'm still working at the shop a few days a week, too, which means I have super long and tiring days and my back is starting to ache on occasion, but honestly it kind of feels good having stuff to do. It makes it so much easier not to feel useless or like I'm wasting time. Even if I'm creating that business for myself and it's completely false.

Unfortunately working all this time has kind of sapped my writing energy - I have ideas, but when I'm not too tired to write them it just doesn't feel worth it - either because it's something no one cares about or it'll be too much work or my writing is terrible so there's no point in continuing to write fic, things like that. Perhaps a tradeoff for feeling so good about myself in other respects?

That'll be all for this entry; I'm going to keep this short so I don't get all intimidated and not finish it again! And also I need to go to bed because commuting into the city every morning means getting up at 6, bleeeh. That's a part of adulthood I can do without.
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2012-04-08 11:35 pm
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Happy Easter, loves, if you celebrate(d) it. And happy Passover, to those that celebrate that.

To those that don't, I hope you have gone out and gotten yourself some Peeps or Cadbury Eggs and had your life enhanced accordingly. And if you haven't you should do because it'll improve your day immeasurably. Have a fantastic week.

Other stuff to post, but I just wanted to get that in there before I let another holiday/special event go by.
stunt_muppet: (Solitaire: A writer's best friend)
2012-03-16 01:36 am
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Day off tomorrow, time to stay up late!

Just late enough to watch more TGWTG videos of cheesy horror TV shows and post a meme!

'The iPod Shuffle Meme

No, not that one. Let's be honest, when we need inspiration, the first place we go is our music library. So let's try something a little bit different. My music library is no help to me, but maybe it can be for someone else. Here's how this thing works:

1) Comment to this post, and I'll give you a prompt in the form of whatever song shuffles up next on whatever music player I've got going at the time.

2) Turn on the music player of your choice to shuffle, post this to your own journal and dole out prompts. No, you can't hide your shameful music. If it shuffles up, that's the gig.

3) Write/draw/whatever way you create for the prompt you've been given: post it. Again, no hiding the shame. Even if you think it's awful, post it.

4) Link your finished product to the prompt comment, because it's always lovely to see the results.'

I may skip a song if I can't find a YouTube link, since then I won't have a convenient way to link you to the music! 

Alas, I have not finished my own prompt because I am still slow. But again! Day off tomorrow. If I don't spend it napping (which I might) I may do some writing! Or just waste time on the internet, y'know.

stunt_muppet: (kermit says yay!)
2012-03-04 10:33 pm


There exists, in this round of [ profile] springkink , a friendship prompt for Deadpool/Pinkie Pie.

I will actually bribe one of you to write it.

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2012-03-01 02:14 pm

So I managed to go a literal month without updating, there's that.

Honestly, not much has been happening that I'd talk about here! I haven't managed much writing (or at least I haven't managed to finish anything), I've drawn on occasion, I've piddled around on a fanmix and tried to work on a vid...nothing really complete or definitive. I've also been working more hours at my shop, which is good because it means I've been able to accrue some savings but also means not as much fannish downtime.

So...partly popping in to say I'm still alive, yeah. I've been commenting more than updating, and I've been more active on Tumblr because it lets me post pictures of puppies and pretend it's content, but there are also memes and stuff to do. I'm slowly going through all the meme backlogs on this journal and trying to finish them up for completeness' sake.

Also I've been spending an absurd amount of timing reading Homestuck. And reading about Homestuck. Time Sink Award Winner right there.

So, things:

1. If Movie: The Movie is not a Yuletide fandom by this December I will be disappointed in Fandom At Large.

2. contemplating getting into Mass Effect? And I fully admit that this is down mostly to the pile of awesome fanart, and also Garrus and Legion who look really cool. And also the prospect of Sheppard/Garrus, because I'm just horrendously predictable that way. Really, the only thing that stopped me from seeing if my computer was up for it on Steam was hearing certain spoilers regarding the ending of ME3 that I am not sure I am down with. Maybe I can just play the first two and leave it there?

There's also the point that I want to support BioWare after they basically told homophobic gamers to GTFO after someone complained about the m/m romances in Dragon Age. I'd like more game companies to do that! It'd be nice. Maybe I could play Dragon Age instead? Hmm.

3. I've been beading! A lot, actually, though mostly simple stuff. Here, have some pictures!

Pictures! )
You can find most of these (save for the paper beads, which I'm not finished with yet) on my etsy page if you'd like to wear them for yourself! Or just look at more pictures.

4. I always want to write fic based on my fannish dreams and then I remember that a) nobody cares about other people's dreams and b) the whole reason they're dreams is that even in context they don't make a whole lot of sense.

...It was a Generator Rex dream wherein Noah had to go on a mission to the bottom of the ocean for some reason but then his radio cut off and no one knew where he was so Six went down after him, busted through the ocean floor, ended up in a grey lobby with someone who was either Death or one of Death's assistants and then dived out a window into a featureless void. And after that I had to leave for some reason (because the whole thing was something I was watching on a movie screen) and when I came back no one else in the theater would tell me what happened. My dream projections are dicks. :(

5. A meme answer! From [personal profile] caiusmajor , one of those seven-questions things wherein you comment asking for questions and I ask you things for you to post.

Cut for length and discussion of robotporn. )

6. I have some other stuff I guess but I've been typing this entry for far too long. See you later flisters.

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2012-01-31 11:14 am
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So I've got some options.

Today is my day off work after several days of helping with floor moves (translation: hauling heavy merch around to revamp the store layout). I am a bit knackered after all that and don't feel like doing much. 

There are people renovating my bathroom, so ideally I should be out of my house so's I can get out of their way.

There are four things I could do here:

1. Something responsible, like go out with my dad and car shop because my baby is, unfortunately, starting to have engine trouble that will cost more than she does. As much as it breaks my heart not to have her, it's probably time.

(Of course, Dad also insists that my next car be one with a manual transmission, which I barely know how to drive. I'm sure I'll figure it out eventually, but those times in between that I spend stalling it trying to get it out of the driveway are not going to be fun.)

2. Do something equally responsible but homebound, like insurance paperwork or trying to clear some of the mountain of paper and crap out of my room, because god knows that's an ongoing effort.

3. Bugger off to the bead shop (which is 45 minutes away) and gaze covetously at more beads I don't need. And also ask the folks working there if they know a way to seal paper beads without getting some expensive enameling, because I've got a sheet of wrapping paper that is way too pretty to throw out but I don't want to buy a whole big tub of UTEE if I'm only going to use it once.

4. Try to write. Because, you know, that's gone great over the past few weeks. (Hint: No it hasn't.)

On the one hand, having more hours at work means I've got more financial leeway, but it means on my days off I'm way more tempted to just tear off for the malls or the movies.

I have done some drawing, though! I'll get pictures up later tonight, probably.

Also I haven't been journaling very much have I. I'm still alive! Hi.

stunt_muppet: (Solitaire: A writer's best friend)
2012-01-21 11:14 pm

I haven't been here very much have I.

I've been drawing and writing rather than posting anything. Oh, and surviving in the wonderful world of retail and its many cold germs.

...I had a cold three weeks ago, I've got another one now, and in between I had an eye infection, okay, I'm kind of pissed off.

So, in regards to the writing, would anyone be willing to beta a first draft of the first chapter of the Big Huge Crazy AU? I'd kind of like to finish at least two chapters before I start posting so this doesn't become a deadfic (although I did some writing on the second chapter of No Victims Only Volunteers today! I really really did!), but a lot of it was either freewritten or practically dragged out of my brain with a winch and cable, so I need to be sure it makes sense and I didn't muddle up my tenses again.

It's probably going to be about 2000 words when the first chapter's finished, TFA, post-S3, gen but dark. Would anyone be willing to beta?

Ugh, I hate head colds so much. *crawls through piles of tissues*
stunt_muppet: (omfg whut)
2012-01-06 09:44 am
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This is the worst belated Christmas present ever

Muppet: Hey, it's my first day working at the Bethesda store. I should show up early to make a good impression!

Muppet's Body: Merry Christmas! I got you pinkeye.

Muppet: D:

Muppet's Body: Or maybe just a stye, I'm not sure which, but either way you're going to have to take time off work to go to the eye doctor to make sure you don't give everyone else contagious eye germs.

Muppet: D:<

Muppet's Body: Oh, and you're going to have to throw out all your eye makeup.

Muppet: I HATE YOU.

Muppet's Body: I got you back pain too.
stunt_muppet: (Solitaire: A writer's best friend)
2012-01-02 10:23 pm

Hey, guys, it's meme time again.

There's like five writing memes going around and I would like to do them!

Two pinched from[personal profile] spacehussy:

Post the first sentence (or three) from every WIP you're currently working on, even if it's very short. Then invite people to ask questions about your WIPs. With any luck, you'll get talking about writing, and the motivation to take that WIP one step closer to completion will appear as if by magic!

A ha ha ha like anything will make me finish stuff but it's worth a shot.

WIPs! Lots of them! In Doctor Who, Transformers Animated, Transformers Prime, and Homestuck fandoms, plus an origfic! )


And the other meme: If there was a kinky scenario you could request me to write, what would it be? Please be as specific as possible reasonably specific without going onto pagelong kinkmeme-prompt lengths.

No promises, but, hey. I always like to see what people would like for me to write. Or like to see written.

Not that I don't have bajillions of prompts to write already. Um.

The other meme tomorrow, maybe, as it is quite late and I am tired.
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2012-01-02 12:22 am

Should Auld Acquaintance etc.

Happy New Year, loves.

I hope 2012 is good to you, and you achieve all you aspire to. Be well, be happy.
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2011-12-28 10:12 pm

testing, testing, one, two, three...

Testing out this Dreamwidth cross-posting thing. Is this working? Can anyone hear me?

So, yeah. This is my DW. It's the same name as my LJ. I'm not leaving LJ, but I'm gonna cross-post just in case.

Oh, and I've got a Tumblr now. Same name again because I'm not very creative.

stunt_muppet: (kermit says yay!)
2011-12-26 12:52 am

Good tidings we bring to you and your kin.

I hope you all had a merry Christmas, loves.

Unless you don't celebrate, in which case I hope you had a merry day of not having to go to work or do much of anything at all.

And yes, my Christmas cards to you guys aren't there yet. That's because I completely forgot to mail them until I was wrapping presents last night. A New Year's Card is on its way instead. :(
stunt_muppet: (omfg whut)
2011-12-21 11:10 pm
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Man advanced physics is weird.

Wanna feel very short-sighted? Watch the episode of "Through the Wormhole" on what time is and whether it really exists. Watch your Christmas shopping list suddenly feel very insignificant.

Also, yeah, the new commenting style is exactly as ugly as I thought it'd be. And the anonymous icon with a bag over its head is kind of creepy-looking. I realize I don't pay for my LJ and thus they couldn't give less of a shit if I leave, but can anyone point me to the Dreamwidth journal importer? I couldn't find it and I want to get started importing as soon as possible since I figure it'll probably be backed up.

Also does the importer bring comments with it? There's a lot of nice stuff in the comments of my journal. :(

Day off tomorrow. I should spend it shopping, cooking, beading, and wrapping presents but I mostly want to spend it writing and drawing. And napping. And listening to doom metal to rinse the endless repetition of the same 3 holiday CDs out of my head.
stunt_muppet: (omfg whut)
2011-12-16 12:43 am

Why aren't you using the Customer Appreciation Bat?

Contrary to the title this entry is not whining about retail. It's still pretty sane here in the shop, and every day I praise the Patron Saint of Retail Workers that I am not working at Best Buy and have not had to break up any fights.

Nah, this entry is whining about actually for-real failing Organic Chem. I mean, I tried, the night before my final, to finish all the work I had to make up, I really did. And I studied. And then I got my third test back and saw I'd gotten a 42 out of 110 on it, which is somehow worse than I did on the test I didn't even finish.

And so I just said "fuck it" and hid in my room for the rest of the day until it was time to go to work and didn't even check to see if my professors e-mailed me because I just wanted to forget I'd ever taken that class.

In all honesty? I'd be okay with taking it again. It'd be kind of a waste of money, but I've saved up from working the holidays. What I'm most worried about is what kind of lie I'm going to tell my mother. I'm not looking forward to the freak-out "what's wrong with you, I thought you were getting better, you're so much better than this" business. I get why I failed - I was working plus taking care of her while she did her schoolwork plus taking care of my grandfather plus applying to/fretting over grad school plus getting sick plus not giving a crap about the class after the halfway point. But given that she wants me to go to grad school so bad I'm afraid she'll make me quit work, and I don't want to do that before I get another job. I need an outside job to feel useful, to feel like I'm doing something with myself, and also I hate having to borrow money from my parents.

I wish I still gave a crap. I hate not giving a crap, especially about grad school. As much as I hate the idea of it I feel like I don't have a choice, like if I don't have that impetus of "go to grad school" I'll have no direction and just sit around my parents' house and wallow. Even if I know I wouldn't.

Oh, and the mouspad on my computer stopped working, in more first-world-problem news. I need to try to scrounge up a USB mouse to make sure that it's just the mouse and not the whole computer suddenly, which I don't think it is since it boots up okay. Uuuugh. Why is everything kind of bollocks right now.


On a completely different note, listening to nonstop holiday music at the shop seriously makes me want to write about the various religions and psuedo-religions and gods and celebrations in my various fandoms. Like hey, wasn't Time considered a goddess in Doctor Who secondary canon? Odd, given the fact that Time Lords are supposed to be a highly advanced scientific society. Is this a sign of their decadence, or of how far they've fallen, that they attribute what they formerly had mastery over to the supernatural? And hey, maybe there's even a James Frazer "Golden Bough" thing going on where because so many sophisticated minds believe in this godlike force and as such that causes her to be real and time to stop behaving rationally.

Or hey, even Transformers. Primus/the planet/the creator is referred to as a god, but how does one worship or express faith in something that you know is currently extant and beneath your feet? What about the Thirteen, do people know about that? Are they like saints? Or Homestuck, with the obvious parallels between The Sufferer, the Dolorosa, the Disciple and the Psionic to Jesus, Mary, Mary Magdalene and Peter - and given all the dinners my family eats over at the Cuban place with all its Santeria candles I ended up thinking about the history of Marian devotion and how strongly Mary is represented in syncretic religions and hey, I wonder how that would go when not only is the Mary figure still alive (because she doesn't get killed till Mindfang's time) but the whole faith is sort of underground and secret and if any of the Sufferer's secret followers have a branch of Dolorosa devotion and I'm thinking about this too hard again aren't I.

Of course, this is sometimes this is the only think keeping me from punching someone in the face the 500th time I hear "Rocking Around the Christmas Tree", so there's that.


I plan on doing very little but sleeping tomorrow. 

stunt_muppet: (nom nom nom)
2011-12-12 01:54 am
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Yet another post-and-run-at-2.a.m. because it's all I do now apparently.

So I started setting up that Etsy shop at last. It's not very fancy; there's only a few things on it right now, you're on Etsy, maybe you'd want to go look at it?

If nothing else you can look at all my exercises in marketing-ese.
stunt_muppet: (nom nom nom)
2011-12-09 12:24 am

I really am going to reply to comments very shortly.

I'm not even working tomorrow, it'll be great.

But in the meanwhile, last night I was like "Oh hey, I've got a whole bunch of labs to do. TIME TO MAKE SOME ICONS HERP DERP."

And so I feel I should post them so I have a sense of completion.

23 icons, all Homestuck because that's where the fanart comes easiest, mostly ancestors and Equius.



Icons! )

Also on a similar note, I don't suppose there's any Handmaid/Darkleer out there. I mean it does remove all the creepy dubconnish "I put a chip in your heart to make you love me" grossness from Equius/Aradia, and if the Handmaid still has any hope left of escaping her employer using Darkleer's psychic void seems like a natural idea.

Of course, she'd be found anyway and Darkleer would die horribly because that's kind of how the Ancestors' lives work, but wouldn't it be cool while it lasted?

...don't make me write it. I can't even explain to you how much crap I already have to catch up on.
stunt_muppet: (Solitaire: A writer's best friend)
2011-12-06 11:30 pm

Flist help me make important life decisions.

So. I finally got a job. Kind of.

I interviewed for a small nonprofit that works with health issues for LBT women. It's an unpaid internship, mostly maintaining a database of donors and keeping up with donor requests and needs. Honestly doesn't sound all that fun, and I wouldn't even get paid, but I think I'd like working there and it seems like a small, close environment. And also it's about health issues! With underserved populations! And they also talked to me about how they like to make sure they set their interns with a job at the end of the internship.

But I also interviewed for a position at the FDA. It's paid. And they haven't gotten back to me about it yet. I haven't even filled out the application yet, because I need to go through USAJobs and finish the application. And even then I might not get it.

And then of course there's my retail job to consider. I can probably continue it for the money if I took the internship, not with the full-time job. But I don't want to turn down the internship and then not get the FDA job.

And then, of course, Mom pointed out that if I took the internship I wouldn't be able to go to school. I want to just scream at her "I don't want to go to grad school, okay, I'm only applying because you want me to and I feel like I don't have a choice, stop going on about it."

Speaking of Mom I asked her the other day if she'd be very cross with me if I failed Organic Chem and had to take it again. Her answer: "Why? You're not going to fail, are you?"

Yeah thanks Mom I'm glad you didn't answer that question that's really great.

Ugh. Everything is Orgo and everything hurts. And I'd just really love to know why I can memorize all the interrelationships in Homestuck and all the nuances of dubiously-canon robot spirituality but I can't fucking remember how an epoxide reacts.

stunt_muppet: (this is my TF icon)
2011-12-03 11:32 pm
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Fruity Rumpus Asshole Factory.

It never fucking fails. Our homework is due by midnight tonight, and the website we use to do said homework is down.

Oh well. Means it's not my fault if it's not finished, then.

Ugh, organic chem, guys. I know my mom will be pissed off at me if I fail this class, but you know what? I won't be pissed off at me. Actual scientists that I give job interviews with have failed Organic Chem and had to take it twice. It'll suck to have to pay the tuituion again, especially since it's all coming out of my pocket, but...well, hopefully Mom won't kick me out if I fail, because then I would be fucked, but other than that I will not spiral into inferiority and depression if I have to take it again. And that is what I am most worried about.


On another brief note, if you guys were to do a fanmix, would you go with music the character would like, or music that fits them? And what about if the music that you think fits is really popular, because I hear people complaining all the time about Top 40 music being on fanmixes and them all being the same.

To bed now, my batteries are running low.
stunt_muppet: (nom nom nom)
2011-11-19 10:44 am

Things I want to do but probably shouldn't:

1. Write a whole bunch of John/Karkat specifically to piss everyone off.

Hey, hey, fandom, come over here I have something really exciting to tell you. Are you listening? Are you ready for it because I think you aren't it might just blow your mind right out of your face.

Ready okay here it is:

There is no such thing as an inherently bad pairing. Or an inherently good one, for that matter. There is no intrinsic moral or utilitarian worth to be had in any pairing given that they're all just ideas/devices for us to have fun with a media source on the internet. You don't have to like any particular pairing, but your feelings about them do not make them good or bad.

Now shut up and sit down and stop throwing fits about it. Cripes.

2. Sign up for Yuletide. Last time I tried that I defaulted and I'm pathologically incapable of doing much of anything on a deadline so it's pretty well covered why it'd be a bad idea to sign up for Yuletide but it always seems like so much fun and I am a greedy bastard who likes getting presents. :(

Plus, last time I signed up the fandoms I volunteered for (and the one I ended up getting assigned) included the movie The Fall, which is so unceasingly flawless that when I tried to write for it I tied myself in knots trying to construct Meaningful Symbolic Magical Realist Blather that equalled the unbearable perfection that is The Fall and predictably enough didn't get anywhere.

If I was going to sign up this time, I would sign up for movies like Van Helsing and Priest, because yes, there's a category for the Priest movie. The thing is, much as I enjoyed them, both of those movies were complete bollocks that I went to see mainly because there were pretty people in them. I would feel much less pressure writing for them.

Although I suppose if I wrote for Priest the recipient might expect me to know things about the manhwa and I really don't, so...

Also the Gabriel Knight games are on there and if I had played the last one I would sign up just to write that, MORE GABRIEL KNIGHT LOVE YEAAAH.  

3. Make some icons out of the pile of fanart I've right-click-saved from Tumblr. Oh wait I already did that.

Six Homestuck (mostly Equius and Equius <> Nepeta), 5 Transformers Animated (Sari, human!Wasp, Blackarachnia), and one random humanized Pinkie Pie because I can. Oh, and one Tarman from Return of the Living Dead, because the picture was funny.

Icons! )

Don't make fun of my amateur icon skills. :(

4. Join Tumblr, for that matter, given that about a third of LJ seems to have moved there. Where are you gu~ys?

But I'd feel weird being on Tumblr - there's no real way to post fic or blog on there, you just have to reblog from other blogs, and I can't figureout how one's supposed to hold a conversation of any kind. Also it seems to be primarily fanart focused and while I've been going to the open model sessions at our local arts center I'm still not good enough to have any kind of consistent offering.

5. Spend an hour on the computer making a post when I should be doing something productive like cleaning my room or getting ready for work.